I tried to cut down my calories yesterday. (Coz I believe low-calorie diet is the way to go). And I was starving the whole afternoon. It's a mental torture. Then I realize, I just cut 200-300 calories from my diet. And I'm still consuming 1880 calories a day. Man, I wanna try having 1600. I guess it's gonna be really hungry journey for me. I'm meeting with a nutristionist on 16th. I think I'm gonna argue with her if she keeps yelling at me (that's what happened when I met with a nutrisitionist for the very first time when I was like 17). Coz they have never been fat. They don't have emotional eating or impulsive eating issues. They're like robots. They only eat what is healthy and don't eat what is not healthy. I can't do that. Not now. So it's gonna be a real struggle.
I'm planning to get healthy and go to Australia at mid-2010. It's a year and a half from now. I'm planning to lose 100 pounds before doing so. Of course I'll try to train myself to be physically fit. Or at least I can run and climb and all that. Coz I plan to do all the exciting stuff in the great outdoor of Australia (I hate nature. That's another thing I have to work on). I'm not sure whether I can do it, esp. I have to get a job real soon. And if you're working like 12-15 hours a day, 5.5 days a week. How can you lose weight? I'll probably gain weight because of it. So it's gonna be a terrible struggle. But I have a year and a half. And I have to do that for my health and my trip. So I have confidence that I can do that. Even just lose 60 pounds (to be under 200) would be great.
I'm so sleepy now. I'll probably eat more today. (Sleep deprivation is another deadly factor for excessive eating.)
Ronny xx
Monday, December 8, 2008
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