I'm declaring WAR to my body!!

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I don't know how long I'm gonna do this. But I need to lose weight, for the sake of my health and my life. My life sucks right now and I'm the only one who can change that. Besides, I'm on the edge of having endometrium cancer, i.e. within 5 years or less, I'll have either uterine cancer or endometrium cancer. I don't want to remove my uterus. I'm 25 for God's sake. So now I need to do this for myself, and for the possibility of having my dreams come true.

I'm not proud to say that the last time I weighted, 2 1/2 weeks ago, I was 265 pounds. I can't set the goal to lose 130 pounds. That will never happen to me. One step at a time, baby. So I'm hoping to lose 5 pounds in a month. My goal now is to try to go to the gym 3 times a week, every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Then try to cut 250 calories a day. I'm currently eating about 2500 calories a day. I only have 2 meals in most days, so I'm actually eating 1200 calories in a meal. That is a lot. So I'm trying to limit myself to have 800 calories per meal, plus 2 snacks which limit to 200 calories each.

But at the same time, I'm in a desperate need to save money as well. So it's gotta be really tough. I wanna eat well but I can't spend too much. My goal is to spend around $40 per meal, not more than $50. I'm still failing to do that some days. And I'm buying a lot of stuff too. So I need to keep my expenses in $2000 a month. Hopefully it's going to work.

So tomorrow, I'll try to go to the gym with my sister. That's my only plan for tomorrow. The other plans, I'm working on it already. Hopefully it'll pay off. I need a month of working out in order to make it sticks.

Ronny xx