Day 2 and 3

I'm too lazy to write 2 separate entries hahaha. I went to the gym with my sister on Day 2. It's a public holiday (the anniversary of the establishment day of China). Mental note: Don't go to the gym in a public holiday afternoon. Why? Coz there are so many muscular men hanging out around the lifting area that you have no chance to use all those lifting machine. I need to work on my back, buddy!!

Anyway, since I've skipped gym for 2 weeks, I need to make sure that my body is ready to train again. So I go cycling and walking on a treadmill and make sure that my pulse is between 131-150. In my experience, if your pulse go beyond 150, it will be cardio training but not fat burning. My leg is strong enough so it's not hard. It's just that my pulse is higher than before. So I need to keep track of it.

I'm really tired from all the lifting and situp-ing. I don't know how much I can lift anymore so I just go back to the weight I lift 2 weeks ago. Turn out it's too much. So I'm really tired. Thank God I'm just tired, not soar. I can't do soar very well. Hahaha.

Another miracle thing is that I only gain 0.5 pounds. I thought I'll go back to 270 pounds for sure. I guess my muscle weight turn back to fat weight. That's why it kinda balanced out.

I didn't do diet very well. I'm having fast food and all that. But I figured that if you're working hard in the gym, you should eat something you really want to comfort yourself or whatever. I need to keep myself happy and mentally healthy. Coz I know how fucked up I'd been if I'm depressed or sad.

Today, on Day 3, I did planned to go to the gym again. I wanna try to go to the gym 3-5 times a day. But then I'm too tired and I don't have much strength to get up or walk for that matter. So I just stayed home. I'm spending way too much on Day 2 anyway. I had lunch with soap, veggie, curry rice and egg pancake. After I calculate the calories, it turned out to be more than 1000 calories. And over my price budget too. Well, I don't have any other things to eat anyway. (Oh I've forgotten that I have a burrito at my freezer, haha). And at dinner, I ate like 2 bowls of rice. I'm so hungry that I felt so weak. It's crazy. 

I realized that I'm actually kinda girlie. I'm thinking about what I wanna do after I lose weight. I wanna wear high-heels, summer dresses, chic rocker outfit. And I wanna go travel, try rafting, rappelling, and sky dive. I'm not girlie in real life, personality-wise I'm kinda normal. Haha. Not tomboyish and not girlie. Kinda in between. And I wear T-shirts, jeans and sneakers. That's the only thing that fit me. I tried to get a pair of heels for my graduation. I couldn't find anything coz my feet are too fat. It's ridiculous. I need heels for my suit and gown. What should I do?