Day 22 - I made a pack!!

I was so pissed off at myself and feeling quite depressed. Then I realize that I need to find a way to fix it. No one can fix it for me. So then I try to think of something that will motivate me. The least I should do is to keep myself working out 3 days a week for a month. Coz a month is a time when you try to make something stick to your life. 

I realize that I need rewards to make myself do something. The best motivation is food and money. I can't do either coz if I have a good meal, all my hard work would be wasted, and I don't have money. Then maybe I should buy myself something. But then I don't want to buy myself something wasteful. I also feel that my dream is so fucking far away that it may never come true. So I need to do something that pull my dreams a little bit closer. So I've decided to buy something related to my Australia or New Zealand Working Holiday trips. And if I didn't workout, I won't have my reward, and I will pay myself $100 for punishment. That might be a good way to save money as well.

I need to get healthy desperately. And I don't want to do this in a super harsh and hell way. I can't do it like the Biggest Loser. I'll stop right after one workout. I tried to workout a bit tougher but then I can see the backfire already. So I'll do it slow and steady but for a long time.

But you know, today I feel more energetic and I feel good about myself. But I don't want to go out at all. So I skipped. I'll try again tomorrow. 

I made my very first curry today. It's really delicious. I can't believe how easy it is to make curry. Even easier than Spaghetti. And it's the best curry I've ever had. Hahaha. It's really sweet and not spicy at all. Coz I made Japanese curry.

Keep pushing,

Ronny xx